You have always been GOOD to - .ME.

Jesus thank you for always being so G00D to me, I promise I won't pout or complain, even though I don't understand your ways. I TRUST YOU. I delight in you, man Jesus you are so GREAT SO BIG so Incredible. Jesus take my life... it IS YOURS, it's the very LEAST I can do. Let it bring life to people I come in contact with. And most of all Jesus develope me in LOVE. Jesus I need to love, please abba I beg you teach me how to love.. how to be consistant, relentless, and pure in my LOVE. Father My love is so weak.. and I don't want to offer MY love but Your love. Father you have always been a good foundation for me, to step my feet. As I walk through the muck and the mire.. and my face is stained and crusted with dirt.. you see me as beautiful. I look at the beauty of your glowing face, and I have peace I'm right where I belong. Whether caked in mudd, or forgotten by this world and the people. I see you as BEAUTY, I want the world to SEE you. I mean really SEE you. Please take every part of my JOY, it is only yours that my heart smiles. I thank you for people being awakened to see you, I thank you that you would use someone like me to shine some light on their hardened hearts. I pray that I would stop focusing on myself but that I would focus on the deadness around me, not be troubled, or distraught but to pursue them to ask for your breadth of life to go into them. Jesus how can I live without you? Your life and your blood must go forth, you are the only REAL JOY and LOVE we have nothing in this world is better than you! YOUR LOVE IS BETTER THAN LIFE.I just love you so much, for all the wonders that you do, their is nothing you won't take me out of. You have turned my hardened heart into a loving stream. You have taken me out of the drunken vomit into your loving arms. You have picked me up out of my self pity, and turned my face to you. I want nothing in this life but you. I pray for visions, dreams, of you and your vision for me. Help me see the JOY in the tasks that you put before me, and help me never be distraught or feel heavy about bringing life to people. Help me never give up this fight to bring others into the same light and joy that I have found. I once was lost.. but now I'M FOUND! this Joy that surrounds me is more than I can take.. I'm undone. Your are my LIFE. hOLD ME Jesus! I am yours. Take my family.. let this be yours. Let the customers at the coffee shop find you in their church. Let the radicals know you and be sold out for you. Jesus help me LOVE.

I have to love... Father EXPAND my heart. Whatever you have to do give me compassion behind my understandings. Give me love behind fear, or insecurities. I need your love and your life. I need to see it go into this dry and weary world.