I need to get into the WORD.

Jesus I need to get into your word. I think your showing me a lot lately, my heart and soul have been wondering like a fly to a light zapper my heart has been floating towards other lovers. Old thoughts, old dreams, past and present anticipations are killing me.
Yet you are leading me, you are leading me to a life that is less about me and more about you.Everytime I want to do things that will be more so about me, you stop me and you lead me else where.. you are taking care of me. And I love to remain on the path of righteousness, I hate evil and everything of this world.. I hate it because it seperates my heart from you. My spirit is grieved when it is seperated from you beloved.. so I won't lie to myself, I won't tell myself I'm not that foolish kid that needs to be so desperately saved and redeemed again. Because I do.. even more so now thatn ever before, so what that means is that I'll keep this wellspring of life, this heart that flows the very songs, melodies, thoughts, yearnings, and living water gaurded like a garden that is enclosed it will be yours to delight in no one elses. Protect my heart till your return, let your bride be awakened, anticipated with all the oil and intimacy that she could possibly muster up, and anxiously waiting for her beloveds return.

I'm excited that you have stepped in and taken control of my life, everytime you take a step to tear away an Idol, to grieve my flesh my putting a stop to it's sinful desire, I say thank you Jesus! For caring enough.. for being jelous for me, for loving me enough to be blunt and unapologetic when it comes to my life with you.. our life. We must protect this love that we have, for we are married to one antoher, gaurd my heart, as I protect and carry your Honor.

I don't have to go to a conference to meet with you, lets make it more intimate THIS year, I'll skip out on the conference I'll surrender my ideals, plans, and schemes .. I know this is of you. Because your protecting and gaurding my heart. And lets meet together and start this year off in a more intimate one on one thing together. Love you..

I love you beloved.