You lure me.

Other people seek my attention, Jesus you are in them and they love you. Father it would be self righteousness of me to deny time with them, this is where you are when two people commune and conversate you are in the midst of a connection. Father it would be for your Glory that I embrace your people, Jesus teach me how to have the grace to be in this world but not of it. Father I pray that you would consecrate me an alien, father I know the image of the person you are calling me to be. I almost know what she looks like, what she runs after, and how she is uncompromsing and unyielding. Her focus and vision are unrelenting she has eternal eyes to look for her beloved, her soul pants as she anticipates your coming. Her life is the bridegroom fast and she won't stop till you have it all, she may fall but it is only for your Glory that she comes to that place of humility. It is only by your Grace that I reach that place of triumph over self, I left sin a long time ago repenting and now I'm trying to throw off everything hinders love, everything that entangles me. Father those small pleasures, that idle time, that sleep, that coffee, that fellowship, you are mine and I am yours. Their will always be something I'm missing out on of this world by seeking you, but faith is being sure of what we don't see. Father give me grace I need FAITH to know that everytime I turn away from something temporal because of you I'm grasping for something in the heavens. A tighter grasp of your hand. Father I do not love when I fast, I'm irritated when I fast, I'm grumpy, tired, and weak that is my soul nature but it is propped up by other things to really realise it's depravity. Father I want to Fast for love, for a love that is strong, a love that is your love so I'm not loving people when I'm feeling fine but your love is breaking through despite my weaknesses. Father keep a gaurd over my mouth, Lord stir up lovesickness in me. Jesus let me experience the pull from worldly things, let me experience the starvation of instant pleasure, father I delight myself in you so feed me honey from your lips scripture that I can hide in my heart. To fast for you, is a calling to abandon all and count it as loss. You can have my body, my time, my energy, my love, my comfort, father you can have my body I will surely not DIE but be strengthened in my inner man on account of your Glory and Goodness. You are a good father, and what you ask of us is only for our benefit that we would truly know you as our creator in your fullness. Father that we wouldn't be content with a faint foggy image of you, a golden calf in replace of you and your Glory, but father let us have eyes to see you as you are. Paul says that it granted to us that we may suffer as you suffered, well father I want a piece of that Glory. Let me not despise sacrifice, father to despise sacrifice is demonic, father let me take joy and delight in sacrifice. Lure me into your garden, your sanctuary, so that I may see your face. Let the holy spirit come upon me giving me grace to do your will and not my own. Let me be wrecked by the vision of what you have for me.. father and let me forget my body, my hunger, myself, my selfishness, my nature, my time, my friends, and family in the process. That when I pick back up what you've given me like my friends and family they would be rightly yours and I would treat them as you treat them not by my own strength but by the power of your spirit.

Father I'm fasting to see your love break through, so that I know your love is more powerful than my emotions, my body, my strength, my temperment, my personality, if your love breaks through I'll see sacrifice, I'll selflessness as I reach out to people it'll be you. I want to fast to see your strength in my WEAKNESS. Father I am failing yet you will answer me, I'll keep asking, and seeking you in this. Until I obtain it, I will keep my eyes focused, and though I may fall 70x7 I will be called righteous because I GET BACK UP.


your beloved
Brooke